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I’m really proud of
myself. I surprised myself with how well I did on the advancement exam. The most you can get on the exam alone is 80 points, the score you needed to pass it was 50, I got 76.64… my Command Master Chief today told me thats the second highest he’s seen as a CMC.. including previous commands he’s worked in! For the final multiple (awards points, pass not advance, eval mark..) everything added together you had to have a 105 to advance… I had a 178. I’ve been so excited about advancing since I found out on Friday. Even if it was A LOT of people this cycle who advanced since they’ve been kicking everyone out, I’m still so excited because I know I would’ve advanced regardless because I did so well. It feels like such a huge burden lifted off my shoulders, now I have a year until I can take the test to advance to E-5. I can’t wait! Normally you don’t start getting paid until about 6 months after the results come out, but because I’m in the 99%ile (meaning I scored higher than 99% of the people who took it) I should be getting paid by July!! So freaking awesome!!
I’ve also been eating much healthier, I VERY rarely drink soda or beer now, much less fast food and junk. I’ve been running and working out pretty much everyday. I’m generally happy right now, for the most part. I like this feeling. I’m SO excited to go on leave Friday!! Got the mud run on Saturday, then Sunday off to Orlando to meet up with my family and have a real vacation, then drive up to Jersey!!!! Ah I can’t wait!! =]
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Obnoxiousness is my biggest pet peeve…
you look/sound like a fucking idiot… so shut the fuck up!!
Woke up this morning at 6am anxious to check advancement results, it was better than any Christmas morning to see my name on that list, as well as a bunch of others who deserved it! So freaking excited to make Third Class Petty Officer haha!! It makes everything worth it, and then to get love through Facebook, phone calls, texts and in person all day felt amazing and so rewarding! Then I got to eat Panera for the first time in over a year and do some lovely shopping and eat a delicious freaking cup cake!! Although the Rangers losing was pretty depressing, it happens and they played an amazing season so I’m super proud of them and can not wait for next season! =] Never stop Believing! <3
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Since I’ve been back from Deployment, I’ve gained all my weight back. So I currently weigh 160 again, not a happy camper but it’s my fault.. beer and fast food/restaurants seemed like a good idea after being trapped in a desert for 7 months. I have a goal to get down to 145-150 and be tone. I’ve been running everyday for a week straight! I’m proud of myself, even if I jog/walk a bit… I went from nothing to at least 3 miles a day. Also have been doing crunches/push ups and what not after running. I reallllly hope I can stay motivated! I’ve been tracking what I’ve been eating as well and trying to keep my calorie intake between 1200-1800 daily and I’ve been doing well. I’ve been eating more fruits/veggies too! I finally bought myself a george foreman grill! So excited, first thing I cooked was a Boca veggie burger, yum! =] I’m nervous about going home on leave and ruining my work I’ve been putting in, but I hope to run/work out at least 3-5 times a week while I’m home and in Orlando.. but I think walking around those parks should count haha. Need to stay motivated!!!!
Running…
is painful! Since Thursday I’ve been running everyday, the least amount has been about 2 miles on a treadmill. I only ran on the treadmill once, every other day has been outside on hiking paths at a couple state parks around here. Yesterday we ended up doing a little less than 5 miles, not sure of the exact amount because all 3 of our trackers had different numbers. It was really difficult, I walked quite a few times but I never gave up or felt negatively about it.. considering I haven’t been working out very much at all for 3 months, I’m proud of myself. I ended up falling at one point and immediately got up and continued, had to walk though because I was too busy laughing at myself. Running outdoors has been so much fun, I enjoy it SO much more than a treadmill and even a track, I like being distracted by watching where I’m running since theres so many tree roots and what not. I really hope I continue with this, it’s only been 4 days so far but I already feel so much better about myself. I’m extremely sore today and it’s super shitty outside but hopefully we’ll still go run outside.
I’ve realized I have bipolar tendencies pretty terrible and when I drink it enhances them greatly, I hate it. I hate that there’s just a switch in my brain that can be so easily switched the wrong way over one tiny thing, I don’t get it. I don’t want to be like that. A big part of me wants to give up drinking, but I don’t see that ever actually happening.. but I do plan on drinking a lot less.. and I actually have been lately. I’ve had less desires to go out and get shit faced, I haven’t gotten “shit faced” since I was in Vegas. I’m in much better control of alcohol intake, but once something upsets me and makes me angry I change and it scares me.
I just want to vent but I feel like I have no one to vent to. I hate this.